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BETTER     I tell everyone that i'm better But now and then I turn away from my friends I hide in my room I close the door And I stare at the wall Numb and dead I stop breathing Feeling Living And in that one moment I knock the doors of heaven And they refuse to take me in And then I come back to life I get up I breathe I open the door And return to hell

WHAT PEOPLE SEE I breathe and people see my chest lift I blink and they see me close my eyes I laugh and people see my lips curve When I fake laughter No one see’s the pain behind that smile Absolutely no one see’s the tears my closed eyes hide And no one for sure see’s me struggling for breathe when I inhale Does anyone see me alive? Definitely yes Does anyone see me dead? None at all, no, no, no.

THE MOON As the moon begins to shine A young girl turns her face to the sky And just like the moon Her pallor has blemishes That she unsuccessfully hides And just like the moon Her heart has craters Created by the ones she adores And now, Just like the moon Her soul is lifeless

I GIVE UP I gave up smoking, that’s a good thing right? I gave up cutting, that’s even better? I gave up having bad thought, its bad right? I gave up thinking, that’s perfect isint it? I gave up planning death I gave up trying to die I gave up listening to myself I gave up talking to myself I gave up talking about it I gave up thinking about it I gave up expecting I gave up resisting I gave up feeling I gave up reading I must give up breathing Cause I have given up living I’m just surviving and its ok Cause the alternative is being alive