SORRY

Sorry I was never good enough
Sorry I had to make your life tough
Sorry I smoked and cut
Sorry I couldn’t stop the hurt
Sorry I couldn’t keep on the façade
Sorry I have forgotten how to smile, laugh, giggle
I can no longer pretend and I m sorry for that
I cant die and I’M sorry for that
I cant stop and I’m sorry for that
And mostly I m sorry for being who I am
Sorry for living, breathing and letting my heart beating
If I could I would have ripped all my veins
Overdose on pills or
Jumped off a hill
But I’m sorry that I cant
But I try, I try all I can
I’m sorry it’s not good enough
I torture myself, I really do
I let the blade caress my skin just deep enough to cut, not deep enough to die
I try to never cry now
I promise I won’t injure again
The blood will never leak
The tears I’ll never try to seek
I’ll try like I always do
And fail like I always have
All I ask is forgiveness
Or maybe ignorance
I'm sorry and I really am


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