THE REAL ME

This restless energy
and these pent up feelings

That I keep bottled in

They want to spill out

But I resist

I force them in

I shove them deep

It isn’t easy, not at all

It’s trying to fit the ocean in a drop

One day I might slip

But if I do they won’t leak out

They’ll rush out like a broken dam

Except the walls wont be bricked

But sometimes I wonder whether I’m wrong

Whether I should quit silencing my heart’s song

What’ll happen even if the feelings are exposed naked

For everyone to see, to judge, to feel

Cause I’m sure the right person

Will be among everyone

And they are the ones who matter

But then again what if the important ones

Are those who use me, destroy me, play with me

I want to be vulnerable

But am afraid to be hurt

Sometimes I let someone take a peak

Sometimes they like what they see

But other times I end up licking the inflicted wounds

But I the fool, still continue to

Let those feelings out

Sometimes they come out as a melody

Sometimes with a shout

But I guess it’s part of life

Falling, hurting, loving and embracing

But above all collecting memories

To cherish, to feel, to caress

At times when everything is messed up

The memories and experience help you build up

Stronger, better, happier

So here I’m undecided but willing

To let people take a look of me

The one I know

The me that I don’t show